Thankful, Grateful, Blessed

Five Kernels of Corn
Five Kernels of Corn

Last Sunday at church my pastor, aka Mr. Gorgeous, told the story of the Pilgrims. He told about the horrible famine and lack of resources that they experienced. In fact, at one time the situation became so critical that food was strictly rationed. For a brief period of time, every person in the colony was restricted to five kernels of corn per day. FIVE KERNELS… Can you imagine living on five kernels of corn a day? I cannot.

As things continued with the terrible drought, the Pilgrims gathered for prayer. They prayed and prayed and begged God for rain. He answered and gave them two weeks of consistent, gentle rain. The crops were revived and the harvest was plentiful. They gathered for a feast to thank God for His bountiful provision. As they sat to eat their meal, someone placed five kernels of corn at each place setting to remind them of how very far God had brought them.

Before John preached, he gave each of us a small plastic container holding five small kernels of corn to remind us of the journey of our relationship with God.

Five kernels.

I have to confess that I often look at the blessings and the things that He has given me and I forget how far He has brought me. I forget the journey.

There are times that I look at my life and I think about the things that we haven’t done or haven’t done well enough. You know, we should have more in savings than we do, our retirement fund should be larger, we should be able to do more to help those around us. And even though all of those things may be true, I need to see the journey — I need to thank God and acknowledge Him for how very far He has brought us. I need to be thankful for the travel from point A to point B.

What did we learn from the journey? We learned that choices today have consequences tomorrow. We learned that it really is best to pay up front — whether it be financially or with work and effort. We learned that following God’s plan takes us to places and provides us with blessings we could never imagine — even if the journey isn’t always the most pleasant. We’ve learned that the journey is something to be grateful for.

I’m thankful for being the youngest of four: for two precious older sisters — as different as night and day — and an amazing big brother with whom I fought and who I miss terribly. I’m thankful for five parents — Mom, Dad, Momma (2nd mom), Mom-in-Law, and Father-in-Law — and numerous adopted parents who thought I was worth loving and investing in. I’m grateful for the love of a Godly man who welcomed me into his life and heart and made me his wife. I’m thankful for three sons, a daughter in heaven, and a daughter-in-love who are all amazing, gifted people. I’m grateful for nieces, nephews, aunts, uncles, and in-laws (and a few out-laws — smile). I’m grateful for work: store clerk. janitor, legal secretary, corporate writer, recreation director, day care worker, pastor, teacher, and now an insurance claims processor. I’m grateful for friends and former students and neighbors and houses and beds and clothes and shoes and dishwashers. And I’m blessed by so much more than just these things.

Most of all, I’m blessed by the journey to reach, to achieve, and to gain. Journeys teach us and help us to become who God has called us to be.

Five kernels in a small plastic jar — I have one in the living room, one in our office, one on my nightstand, and one on my desk at work.

You may wonder why they seem to be everywhere.

It’s because I never want to forget how far God has brought me . . . and I want to remember that I still have miles to go.

Touch Points

A few touch points in my life: My Bible, my favorite doll from childhood, and Sad Sack -- again, a toy from my childhood.
A few touch points in my life: My Bible, my favorite doll from childhood, and Sad Sack — again, a toy from my childhood.

Recently, at a thrift store, I bought a stainless steel bowl. On one side, it has a small metal ring down about an inch from the top edge. I have another one a teensy bit smaller, but when I found that one, I had to have it. It is the egg salad bowl — and it is just like the one that my Aunt Rose made her egg salad in for years.

Every summer, for forever it seems, I have planted purple pansies with yellow “faces.” I’m not really sure they are my favorite pansies, but they are a necessary part of my yard because my Great Grandma grew them under a window in her yard.

In my jewelry box you will find a Mickey Mouse watch with a red band on one side and a brown leather band on the other side — it was handmade by my Daddy after I broke the original red strap.

I have my Mom’s wedding ring hidden away in a compartment in a wooden box.

In my wallet is a card that came with a bouquet of flowers from Mr. Gorgeous back when we were in college. What he said on that card is special.

My sons and I watch A MUPPET CHRISTMAS CAROL starting in November and numerous times clear up until Christmas. And if I’m really down — even in the summer — I will watch it again.

There is a Children’s Bible for Early Readers that I treasure. You see, our sons took turns reading the Christmas story to our family from that Bible.

Even if I am 100 years old, my favorite movies will always be JUNGLE BOOK, BEAUTY AND THE BEAST, and LION KING — all three cartoon versions produced by Disney. These movies were our boys favorites at different points in their lives and I will always treasure the memories of watching them with my “little” boys.

I have bubble-gum machine rings from our boys, a plethora of handmade bookmarks from Phillip, a blue angel Christmas tree ornament from Nathan, and a threadbare Winnie the Pooh wallet from Ben.

Each of these things — and so many more — are precious to me, not because of their cost, but because of the memories that are attached to them. The true value of the “things” in my life can only be measured in the relationships that they represent.

I’ve been sentimental all of my life. I still have things from childhood — Sad Sack a squeaky dog and my baby doll from when I was tiny along with notes and cards, and even an essay from 4th grade. They are — forgive my description — “touch points” in my life. The items, these things and the relationships that they represent are from a specific time in my life. In strange ways they reassure me. They remind me that I’m loved, that I’m smart, that I’m capable, and/or that I belong.

I’m sentimental about my Bible too. Now I don’t know how you feel about it, but I write in my Bible. I mark it, take sermon notes in it, underline in it and highlight it. You see, I believe that my Bible is God’s love letter to me. My response to that letter is my “talking” back to Him in my prayers and in the notes in my Bible. When God speaks to me through His Word, I put the date by it — sometimes I will write a situation beside it. In many ways, my Bibles are spiritual diaries.

I received a Bible for my 24th birthday and I used it for five or six years. If you were to read it, you would find notes and promises marked from different times in my life: meeting Mr. Gorgeous, getting married, having three boys, going to college, and becoming a pastor. Promises would be underlined. You would find our son’s names by specific scriptures — they were promises that God gave to me for each of our boys. You would find music notes, keys, and hearts drawn in the margins. Those symbols mean something to me.

Since then I’ve had three or four additional Bibles. Each one tells the story of the time in which I used it. Dates, symbols, highlighting, underlining, and notes remain constant — but they are different in each one. They are my spiritual “touch points.” Each note, symbol, or mark reminds me that God cares about who I am. They tell me that He wants me to be more like Him. And, those things remind me that He loves me enough to send His Son to die for me.

The touch points that remind me of my human relationships are precious and important. But the touch points that show the details of my journey with my Heavenly Father? They are life changing.